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.:.Sometimes fate can't stop meddling.:.
Sometimes i walk in the rain
to wash away all the pain;
Sometimes i walk under the sun-streak sky
to remember the fun we had under the sun;
Sometimes i stroll under the twilight sky
recounting those little nothings you once said
.:.Sometimes love can't stop growing.:.
Damn. There maybe dance CCA practice during the school holidays.
Seriously, don't you think all of us should focus on our promos? I'm seriously not speaking for myself, but hey, everyone needs this precious one week alright. Call yourself a chairperson, do you ever think about the rest?
I've checked the schedule, there is ONE WHOLE WEEK before open house for us to practice. Including 2 marking days, which effectively means, i-learning days = no school. Make good use of the precious little time we have now. CCA can wait! 25 days, you think time will wait for us? I tell you now, time and tide wait for no man. Go on, organise a dance prac at ODT, if you want. I'll still make myself present, i'll still give my best, but right down, I dont give a damn, you're tired, i'm tired, all of us are tired. ENOUGH!
ODT dance on saturdays. Some de-stressing time, but....if it gets too tiring when everyting integrates together. OSLE, ODT, CCA. Freak. HAHAs. Oh well. That's the reality.
"This is not your standard; you shouldnt be making this kind of mistakes; you are capable of scoring better..."
This is what Gilbert Tay said. Was pretty affected by this statement. Why place undue stress on me? Am I not stressed enough? EEEK. I've studied, what more do you want? I'll get an A for promos, just you wait!
Someone also told me that getting 12.5 wasnt my standard. Sigh. Rest assure yeah? I'll work hard, and you too, no more Us!
=D
Oh! I forgot to blog about OSLE on Saturday!
I'm glad that I was able to stay through for the meeting. Few hilarious things happened. The most significant one will be the heartshaped balloon. HAHAHA. Well, you see, it was filled with helium and it was a sample for our balloon sales. Thanks to Yiu Leung anyway, he went all the way to tampines to get the samples.
Then, just before we left, we turned on the fans and the balloon started to fly around (because of the wind). It got caught in the blades of the fans, and boom, it burst. All of us just looked at it. LOLS. Yiu Leung came in and gave that pathetic look. HAHAHA.
We had no choice but to lunch at the coffeeshop near sch. OMG! Someone help!! I'm soooo sick of food in Serangoon!!! I kept insisting that we go somewhere else, the guys included, but it would be inconvinient for some. So ya. Anyway, we sat in the coffee shop for close to 2 hours. HAHAHA. A total waste of time, but, nvm, i was killing time. My dance starts only at 6pm!!
Ms Darrell saw us at the coffeeshop at 4pm when she told us to leave sch at ard 1 plus 2. HAHHAA. Of course, she said we were crazy and told us to go hm and study. HAHAHHAA. Went to MRT station with Jeremy cuz we were going in the same direction. Freak, we left at ard 4pm, and it took us only about 1/2 hour to reach outrum park when my dance starts only at 6pm. HAHAHA.
Jer was nice enough to accompany me to wait for my train, cuz he was going in the opposite direction (towards boon lay) while i'm heading towards pasir ris. Yup. Then, the funny ting was, both our trains came at the same time. HAHAHA. So, moral of the story, SMRT's time system isnt accurate. LOL. cuz mine was 6 mins while his was 4min and the trains arrived at the same time. Oh well.
Okay, back to studying. Sigh. JC LIFE IS TOUGH!
It's pretty amazing that i scored SUCH WONDERFUL grades for my Common Tests.
It's not that I didnt study, in fact, I pretty much did. For Chemistry, I read through and digested the notes a zillion times, but again, to not much of a use. Physics, I think i can forget about it. The night before, I forgo all my television programmes and didnt chat much on MSN. What did I do then? I RE-DID all my tutorials, and was rather confident about my test (cause i could solve all the questions), until.....
When I flipped opened the physics paper, god, my jaw dropped. The first question, was, okay, relative to the standard of the freaking paper. Then, the 2nd question, few more thousand of my brain cells died. I couldnt do it, but affer much pulling of my PONYTAIL, I managed to struggle through.
The 3rd question, dont think of reading. LOL. I dont understand a crap, and yes, it took up the majority of the marks of the paper.
The result: i got a real PATHETIC score of 11.5/40. cool huh?!?
Chemistry isnt much better: 14/30, at least, I passed, with regards to JC standard 45% is a pass. Phew. And sigh, only 6 of 08 managed to pass. LET'S WORK HARD!!!
When You're Gone lyrics
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
We were made for each other
Out here foreverI know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
[Chorus]
OMG! Physics test tml. I'm gonna be so damn dead!
I cant fail anymore, or else my head will roll. LOL.
Study; no study - does it make a difference anyway?
Oh, had my GP paper 2 test today, I'm proud to say that i WONT get a big fat ZERO because of a ques. HAHAHAHA.
Oh wells.
Ms Darrell wans us to focus on our studies now. Sigh, dance, it'll have to wait. It's a form of destress to me, but yeah, since promos are coming, we should mug.
Looking forward to OSLE meeting this coming saturday *grins*. It's like finally, i can stay on THOUGHTOUT the meeting cuz my dance starts only at 6pm! 3 cheers!
And then, they jokingly said "lets not have lunch on saturday anymore" *ah bish!* WHACK YOU ARH! lols.
How can you guys bear to leave me out? =D HAHA.
When there was Me and You
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
Sigh,
I'm gonna fail my chem test.
My mind juz blanked out! Sigh.
Emo-ing.
I'm exhausted,
I'm tired,
I'm lost,
I really am.
So many things to do,
yet so little time.
Is that my kind of life?
Workholic?
All work but no time to pause,
to think through?
I kinda had enough,
but,
I know I can't give up,
at least for NOW.
Too many commitments,
too many dreams to realise.
I feel as if i'm trapped in a whirlwind,
round and round,
yet,
where's my next destination?
I don't know, myself.
Academics, OSLE,
Dance (NYJC), Dance (ODT)
SDP, and all other things,
sometimes i've some reservations,
about my calibre.
Can I handle so many things?
Am I capable to do them well?
I can't wait for all these horrendous tests and exams to zoom by,
I can't wait for my OSLE trip,
I can't wait for my dance trip (if there ever be one)
BUT...
Now, all that I can do,
all that I can do within my limits,
within my reach,
is to carry on,
for I'm thankful that I have,
wonderful FRIENDS =)
you guys made a difference in difficult times like these.
AND....
thanks alot for your 'entertainment" till wee hours in the morning.
I've been really busy of the late. Seriously, I hardly have time for anyting that I'd love to do. My life is always revolving around the same few events: School, Dance, Home, OSLE, SDP, PW...and the cycle continues.
Finally, the skeleton of OSLE mass dance is up. It can be found on Team EXODUS blog. Oh my, I think you guys will burst into fits of laughter after looking at my SPASTIC dance moves. Alex commented that I looked real unhappy in that blog, and well no, I was actually REALLY TIRED. It was my 5th recording continuously! 5 time 4 minutes, that like wad? 20 minutes of continuous jumping around.
Chin Hong confided in me once again. That's what a WELFARE REP is for, huh? Just kidding, I think it is just that i'm online when he needed someone to talk to. LOL, hey COPYCAT, cheer up, don't dwell too much on that matter. At least, you'll get to see her in school =) You see, his gf's mum found out about their relationship about....well, i shant spell it out here...but yes, she just found out. Naturally, i tink her mum is VERY un-liberal and objected to it. Sigh, poor them. They even teared together =( thats sad.
Anyway, i'm glad that COPYCAT has decided to look on the bright side =). And *bangwall*, he even has the mood to watch anime, after like 5 hours of emo-ing? LOL.
Right, shall stop for dinner. Take care ya, chicky club =).
Pardon me for the delay in updating my blog! My schedule has NEVER been that HECTIC!!
The past week just zoomed passed. Everything that I do seemed to be a rush, and yes, I'm always LATE for any meetings or events. No, I'm not saying that I'm not punctual, but it's that everything CLASHES with each other! I'm suffocating!
The first lesson of Project Smile was exciting! It was my first time dealing with MAGIC. Wuakaka. I shall keep to the 10 commandments and not leak out the magic trick behind the performances. The facilitators were really nice people, and they really really engaged all of us! Sheeez, it was also PROJECT SMILE that started that 'Serene and Jeremy' scandal. LOL. It was hilarious, and yeah, we all know that there's no hard feelings involved. You see, it so happens that the facil. told us to introduce our name, fav food, and why we want to learn magic. It was just plain coincidence that Jeremy (my fellow AL) was beside me. He went "why i want to learn magic...hmmm....to impress my future girlfriend" and he passes the wand to me (cuz it goes ard in the table). Everyone started getting hyped up la! LOL. So what's the big fuss? LOL. And so, the teasing continued till today's OSLE meeting.
Dance clashed with both Project smile and OSLE meeting. Sigh, I was late on both counts. ARGH! Felt rather bad though. I feel so exhausted, especially after my decision to join ODT. I guess it's just too late for any regrets now, I'll just have to work round the problem and MANAGE MY TIME. I heard from Jeremy that they have quite alot of fun during the Kacang Puteh sales yesterday. Sigh, only if I were there.....I seem to miss all the fun and bonding within the OSLE almost every time. They had bday celebration yest (partly for me) but i didnt get to eat the cake, ran off for dance. They order macs for dinner, I was at ODT. This afternoon, they went for lunch outside school, I walked ALONE all the way to serangoon MRT - I was late for dance. Sigh! Been complaining quite abit these days to Jer (cuz he's lik forever online!) and he jokingly blames me for him not doing his econs essay. Oh well, it's time to mug.
Sigh, OSLE informal meeting with EXODUS next saturday and I WONT BE ABLE TO MAKE IT - AGAIN. fuck. I really dono what's with my dance schedule and OSLE, they just seem like enemies. aRGHH!! Anyway, alex n i are incharge for mass dance cheorography. Hmm, at least it's something i like - HIGH SCH MUSCIAL MASS DANCE.
Alright, that's all for the rants. I LOVE OSLE, I LOVE DANCE, I LOVE SDP, I LOVE 0708. But I can't split myself into 4, can I?
After all these while, I've finally found you, but have you?
Would you be there, to love, to be with me, would you swear that your love is always true? Would you always be the one, to take my breathe away? Random thoughts.





